13. nov. 2010

Strange dream. I was on a bus to visit my friend because I was not feeling okay and needed to talk. On the bus, I kept seeing her at the opposite end but I was not sure it was her so we just kept staring at ourselves. Got off the bus and suddenly my real friend is there. She says she will not have time to talk and she is sorry, but she needs to sleep cos she has to wake up early the next day, or something like that. I got very sad and disappointed and started walking home. It was dark and I was a bit afraid. I was walking on a sort of bridge, very reminiscint of a bridge that was nearby my former residence. There, there were guys in suits chasing each other. Some sort of "bachelors night" kind of guys. They did not seem dangerous, but at the last minute, I got scared and decided not to walk down the dark part. All of a sudden, I am in my apartment. I decide to take a shower cos I feel sad. Then, some Mongolian guy appears. I don't know how I know he is Mongolian but somehow, I do. He asks me how I am and I ask him if he can help me fix my curtains. He fixes my curtains and all of a sudden, I realize that he likes me. I remember all the small talks we have on the corridors and when I see him here and there. I ask him to stay. He says he is busy but he will come back later. I feel better knowing he will come back. I decide to take a shower. It feels like I am living in a hostel or something. Somebody had poured water in my perfume. I tell a girl that the perfume was from my mother. The girl is somenone I knew when I was in boarding house in Nigeria. She was not even a friend. She was a sister of a girl that used to come to my room often. Weird. Anyway, I talk to her a bit and we talk about people sabotaging our stuff, etc.

I have no idea where the scenes started or ended. I woke up feeling normal. No panic or anything.

Gosh! I know what this is all about! Yesterday, during the day, I phoned two of my friends cos I needed to talk and none of them answered their phones. I was a bit sad and I think I called back twice or so but still, they never took my calls. They both called back later in the day, at night. But then, I was already sleeping. I heard the phone ringing and probably thought it would be one of them, but I decided that I will not take the call. Some sort of revenge, for them not answering my calls. However, the friend that appeared in my dream is my closest friend and I had not called her yesterday, so its weird that she should be the one in it. As for that bridge, I had some pretty rough times when I lived near it so that could just be a symbol for what I am going through now. The men in coats, I have no idea. I hate all men at the moment and I am always afraid in the dark. End of analysis.

11, nov, 2010

I had the teeth dream again! But this was a terrible one. Normally, when I have the "teeth dream" its just one teeth that is loose in my mouth. This time, however, they were about 6 or 7 teeth that just crumbled in my mouth. It was terrible. At first, I used my tongue to check in my mouth and it was just one, so I was happy but then, all of a sudden, I felt others in my mouth just crumble and fall about all over the place!

I woke up in a panic!

Lots of meanings and I qualify for them all. Anxiety? Check. Powerlessness? Check. Not satisfied with appearance? Loss of control? Life at standstill? Check. check check. I am the prime candidate for all the different meanings.

9, nov, 2010

Last night, I woke up three times cos of the motions my legs made in my dreams. Everytime I was about to stumble or stumbled in my dream, I physically did the same motions with my legs and the jerking of my legs woke me up.


This has been happening quite frequently in the last couple of months. These "jerky" leg movements. I just read that dreaming about stumbling in dreams means I am feeling a bit unsure about my way in life right now... which will be true, I guess.

22, Oct , 2010

Weirdest dream ever. I was in some sort of "Lord the rings" kind of city. With big gates. It was really strange. But strangest of all, I had a goat with me on a leash, but the goat acted like a dog. Anyway, There was a huge street leading up to the gate and on both sides of the street, people sold stuff. Medieval stuff. And two guys who were escorting me were giving me advice and instructions on what to do when I get out. I was trying to persuade them to come with me but they insisted on not leaving the gate. They directed me to an inn on the other side of the gate but they could not guarantee my safety there either. Then they said good bye. On the way, the goat decided to drink some water by some sort of water fall where lots of young children were having picnics and playing. The goat also rolled himself in their towels/blankets before I could drag him away, so he had two extra blankets on him. We had gone quite a distance before the girls caught up with us but they were on the other side of the road. They wanted their blankets back. So I took it off the goat and had to cross the extremely busy street to give it to them. I crossed, gave them the blankets and was just about to cross back when I woke up...

Woke up thinking about the goat...how weird!

13th oct 2010

Dreamt my ex boss phoned me and begged me to come back to work.

Woke up feeling good.


Usch! my constant worrying over my last job...

12th Oct, 2010

Travelled with some friends and my new boyfriend to the United States for some conference or something. I attended mine first so I got to leave earlier with my friends. He was supposed to join me after a while. He phoned my friend instead to say that he had decided to stay on illegally in the States. My friend was pissed and tried to hide the news from me but I eventually found out. Funny enough, I was completely nonchalant about the whole thing.

I woke up feeling okay.

I suppose this must be a dream manifestation of my constant battle with my inability to trust men at the moment. I have met many new people recently but I have a nonchalant attitide that many consider a bit too self destructive.

Weird...

Been having too many weird dreams that are hard to recount. I did not sleep the whole night yesterday and now I am at work, drugged up on coffee...